39 Weeks 4 Days...

Well, we're still here.  Baby Molan is still snug as a bug and hasn't made any progress in three weeks!  Oddly enough, I'm quite alright with that.  I was so scared after all the rushing around and early talk, I feel content right now.  I'd love to meet him, don't get me wrong, but I want him to come when he's ready...And I really had my heart set on a September baby!  I have no idea why...My Grandfather would be 101 on September 7th, and my cousin's son's birthday is also the 7th of September, so that would be a very special day for us...

But I've made it to the first and I am happy about that.  I think it's because the doctors tell you for months that there's this due date of September 4th, so you sort of set your mind to it.  (Okay, maybe I'm the only one irrational enough to do so??)  And then you progress to about 36 weeks gestation and you realize that that one date you have dreamt about for the last eight months is really meaningless.  A baby won't magically appear this Friday just because I had been planning on him arriving that day since late December!  I think it's a great lesson for me to let go a little bit.  To relax and realize it's not an assignment I am turning in and it's due Friday, or an appointment I have made and need to follow through with this Friday....It's just a waiting game...I'm impatient and a scheduler!  Yet I do feel at peace about it as well.  Boy do I sound hormonal!?!?

Last night Gus was looking at me and he rubbed my belly and said, "Okay, I'm ready to have the baby now.  I want to meet him, and I want him here."  I thought that was very sweet, as we talk a lot about how it's not super real for him yet because he can't see him.  He understands what's going on and he can feel him kick and squirm, but I don't think he can totally connect until he gets to hold him himself...

We just returned from Portland for my 40 week appointment.  Again as I stated earlier, still no more progress.  My doctor felt that the next "progress" I make will be labor.  I'm not sure what made him say that, or the science behind it, but I trust the guy.  Since my appointment this morning there's been more consistent contractions along with a few other little signs of his arrival approaching!

We did talk induction a bit just as a precautionary considering my next scheduled appointment is four days after my due date.  I told him I didn't know much about it, but I think that letting him come on his own sounded like a healthier option.  He told me most women are READY for them to come OUT NOW!!!  But I've had such a great pregnancy the doctor doesn't really feel like rushing him.  I agreed that I don't NEED him out of here, and it hasn't been a horrible nine months at all.  I mean losing some weight and not feeling so chubby would be nice, along with losing that waddle I get after a workout or dog-walk!  He laughed, and agreed I was lucky to have had such a great time.  I did have one question though...How much bigger would he get if he stayed in an extra two weeks???!!!!!!!  He admitted that was a valid concern.  He then proceeded to tell me that the weight gain added between weeks 40 and 42 would not determine the difference between being able to deliver successfully and needing a cesarian section.  And he followed up with the fact that the healthiest option for baby is letting him come when he's ready.  Sounds good to me!  Although I think we've got a big baby on our hands here!  I guess I'll cross that bridge when we get there!

Anyway, enough about us!  I sure can write a lot while nothing has changed.  I'm worried about my future posts when he actually is here!!!  Hope everyone is having a GREAT week!  All our love...