To celebrate, or reminisce, I'm pulling out a few thoughts from an earlier day....
3/17/09 :: 15weeks 4days gestation
First of all, I'm the least paternal person I know. I've baby-sat once when I was thirteen. I hated it. It was so hard. Alicia and Amanda. And I pretty much just sat there while they slept. Needless to say, your entrance into my world was quite a surprise. Our plan was to wait until we were thirty years old to start trying for you. I'm only twenty-four. SOOO young...SOOO scared.
This notion leads me to think that you are a go-getter. Ambitious. Confident. More than anxious to take on whatever this world throws at you. I pray for you every day.
I know, and you will soon, that God puts nothing in your path that you can't take on. I'm placing your pre-natal growth, health, and entrance into this world in the Lord's hands. He's given me this incredible opportunity to assist Him in a miracle. Although I lack experience, confidence, knowledge, and years of wisdom, God has formed and is forming this perfect child inside of me because He knows without a doubt --and regardless of mine--that I can and will be a great parent and we were made for each other. I know you will teach me and your dad so many things and hopefully we can teach you some meaningful things along the way too.
Honestly, I love your father so much that I wanted to keep him all to myself for a few more years. I'm selfish I guess. I know this process of sharing my body with you, and soon our home, will bring your father and I even closer together, but at this point in time I find it difficult to think we could be any closer. Your dad and I have an incredible story together--I can't wait to share it with you. You're going to fall for him instantly like I did. We are a couple of lucky, blessed people to have him in our life. The male gender doesn't get any better than him. Unless of course you are a boy...we will have to try our hardest to help you become just like him!
...About gender...After the initial shock wore off about your arrival--It still feels like a dream as my belly swells no matter how hard I workout at the gym! SURREAL!!!!!! I asked your dad what he thought you were--boy or girl-- I felt girl and still do, but my intuition is always the opposite so we shall see. But Gus said girl too! If I had to put my money on you (RULE: Gambling is bad!!) I would say you are a girl. We'll find out April 10, 2009! Hope and pray your dad is home with us.
One last thing about gender. Before I knew I was pregnant with you and you were smaller than a poppyseed (Can you believe you were that small?!) we were in Mexico for Christmas and New Years with the Molan and Strickland families and I had a dream--Just a split second of a babe swaddled in a pink blanket. It was so weird. I wonder if God was showing me your face?
Yeah, so your dad and I love to travel and you made your first international trip to Mexico at age two weeks gestation--barely implanted! That is more travel than many friends we know. Just wait for your lifetime of adventure. We got you started really early, and all I have to say is welcome to life as a Molan. Wild and crazy! Your first days in the womb were spent in Mexico, and my first days as a Molan were in Indonesia--on the side of a secluded island called Sumba--Another story for when you're older. Regardless, enjoy the ride and welcome to our family. We love you more than anything...
Size: Navel Orange
Weight: Grapefruit
May I just say that I think Jenni wishes she had started a bit sooner as I'm pretty decrepit now and can't help a whole lot...(not that that would happen to your parents) and she WISHES she was a bit younger to run after those two honyocks. ha But God's time is perfect..and I know you know that..You're both such loving parents..that little guy is so blessed and with two sets of wonderful grandparents!
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